The Mid Life Partner

When I was younger I thought I was supposed to be given a woman to stand beside me and create a life together.

It just never happened.

Now that I'm older I realize that I can't go back and do it over with someone. 

I'll never have that experience of sharing a life together, a life partner is forever out of reach.

The best I can do now is find a mid life partner. 

I never wanted to be alone, I always wanted a friend.

Fairly soon I'll just have to accept that it wasn't in the cards I suppose.

But it sucks.

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