Minimum Wage Ninja

When I was younger I thought I was supposed to be given a woman to stand beside me and create a life together. It just never happened. Now that I'm older I realize that I can't go back and do it over with someone.  I'll never have that experience of sharing a life together, a life partner is forever out of reach. The best I can do now is find a mid life partner.  I never wanted to be alone, I always wanted a friend. Fairly soon I'll just have to accept that it wasn't in the cards I suppose. But it sucks.

For days I've been watching the Dave Ramsey Show video clips on Youtube.   I really hate this stuff.  There is nothing worse then hearing the story of someone who does not get what they had coming.  I played by the rules, I did things the right way, yet I didn't succeed and don't have any hope left of doing so.  But these people who screwed off all their life and got into over half a million dollars in debt are given the opportunity to turn it around within a few years?  What about us people who did everything correctly, why's that not my opportunity huh? Perhaps its a character default of mine.  But who cares? What I've come to realize while watching this show is that life is fair to these people after all.  Sure they screwed up.  But they also did what they had to do to get out of their messes.  I suppose that's fair.   It is amazing how many people appear to not actually be aware of the decisions that they are making. ...